craving change

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I am in an awe of the itching at my bones at the moment.
is this all caused by the media cramming this damn word "change" down our throats? i doubt it i rarely listen to their shit. But none the less my bones feel compressed in this word change. My life feels stalled and dried up. i am past the point of being spread to thin. This wafer is about to crumble and cook under the power of distress.

ive been listening to alot of "folkish hippy music" and i feel trapped inside my own body, maybe this is where my recent crave for experience has been derived from.

Im debating moving, to where idk ive applied for jobs in Ohio, other parts of WA and soon to be applying for positions in CO. i need a drastic change for alot of reasons i will try to list a few and be as honest as i can these are my thoughts, my feelings, the reasons for the aching in my soul

1. I feel unusually far from my god, that is the first thought at least, maybe this is how i am interpreting my need for a move, as if he is calling me out of my current situation to explore a world without my current comforts.

2. craving simplicity , my theme for 2008, since the new year i have wanted to simplify my life, use less, waste less become more reliant on the basics

3. desiring experiences that have been pushed off, or neglected before. i cant really explain this one, mind expansion maybe, trying to TRULY separate heart mind and soul. the feeling that ive grown up to fast, taken on to much responsibility?

4. a new found depressed state of mind for the sad shit that is going on in this nation at the moment, war, health care, the "order" of importance of our current administration and those to come seems completely un humanitarian and it bugs the shit out of me


thanks for reading, maybe soon i will escape this funk, maybe by looking inward more i will figure out more of who i am, wait i know i will, im just uncertain of how to interpret it or accommodate the change that needs to take place in order for me to feel like the me on the inside, anyone have ideas?