4 drafts, waitting to be published

What importance does taht have?
it means there is uncertainty, it means that there are things unknown that i have a racing head and that i am finding little comfort in the things i DO know...

Feelings seem to be loosing meaning, loosing definition

Optimism has not changed, it is one of my few remaining feelings that still holds its previous value, still slightly shaky, still inviting me to embrace its warm touch

Love, has become deeper than i ever imagined, has pushed me to levels of tolerance i could previously see unfit for sustainability

Sustainability i think think this word hits the hardest is the connecting piece.
the definition of Sustainability = is the capacity to maintain a certain process or state indefinitely (wikipedia.org)
Currently i am uncertain or unable to face certain issues with the question "how long will i be able to sustain this, how long till i do hold you, till i do see you?"

ive only experienced a situation similar to this back at the beginning of the year, i look back on that time and compare... every little thing gets evaluated but my question is should love like this be evaluated, should there be questions about sustainability,

and what is it about the true deep love that i feel for her that vetoes it all, and makes me feel an overwhelming comfort in our future

only time will tell