someone

**edited after nasondra "incedent"**



please reassure me that this is what its really like
that this is what it will be like
that this is real
that love is real

this video fills me with the most emotion ever
in a moment that i can not be with the woman i love
in a moment that there is so much confusion
so much happiness
so much sadness

re-reading some of the blogs that i have written over the last weeks
and sharing them with you all i am still haunted by love
"haunted" because as i wrote in a blog at understandingbarcus.blogspot.com...
"love is easy" and "love is a battle field"

right now this video explains all that i feel
so completely overwhelmed
so completely shaken

this is no romeo and juliet love affair
no one is keeping us from each other
no one can be responsible but us

at this moment i am watching or listening to this video for the 4th time
tracing my finger over the surface referred to as a trackpad
i imagine it is skin, maybe not yours there is no real association with its texture
it is a comfort that i often find refuge in, skin

love is heart enriching, head expanding, soul questioning, strong

****** ADDED POST NASONDRA ******
THIS was a shoker that left me "shaken" (see above lol)
because at this point in our relationship (nasondra and i)
I had known without a doubt that she was a fake
and for her to share this with me to share something SO true
To use this tool to try to influnace my heart with THESE words was a blow
i watched this video a good 5 or 6 times when i wrote it
watched it again befor writing this update.
THESE words are true love, THESE words are just AMAZING
i dont think this update is necisary however i wanted to post them
im in love with this video and because of it im afraid i wont be falling inlove anytime soon :)

love you all